I know some time ago I said I was going to get back to the business of blogging. Not the “business” necessarily, but the personal business, the business of explaining, describing as best I can the joys and the…quite the opposite of joys…that come along with parenting a special needs child, parenting more than 1 child (typical or not), losing yourself to motherhood and finding yourself again.
I haven’t done that lately.
I’ve found myself under circumstances that I can not fully explain, but which take more attention than I’ve ever had to give over such a long period of time. Cryptic, I know. I apologize. But the hats I now wear have doubled.
I’ve also found myself concentrating on discovering my voice as an Examiner as well as reaching towards national exposure as well as local exposure for the Examiner.com. (This is the part where I beg you to go to my page there and grab that feed too). It takes some time, effort, concentration…I don’t have much concentration lately. It seems thoughts scamper away as soon as they make themselves known.
I also “know” some plausible readers of my blog and that has silenced me in many ways. My mouth appears to have tape plastered upon it and yes, my hands tied. But the truth is, to anyone who “knows” me and might decide to read a post or two…this is a blog of personal, human, natural thoughts and encounters (you can tell by the number of paragraphs that begin with “I”). This is a blog developed to enlighten those who seek it and reinforcement to others who believe themselves alone; to reinforce that they are not bad parents, teachers, friends because the words they read here could be spoken by them.
Lastly, my reading. UGH. My reading. I can’t even look into me feed because of all that I’m behind. I’ve felt I’ve lost touch with so many, so my attention will also go to catching up about them, with them. So…here I go again…
Jannie Funster (2)
Accidental Expert (1)
Jenny (1)
JennyMac (1)
Lisa (1)
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Just remember… You are only one woman! Do what you need to do make it through the day. Blog readers understand – many of them probably being moms themselves, knowing how hard it is to balance the crazy life of motherhood.
Have you consulted w/Terri (@LodiSpirit)? She just went from local to national… Maybe she can give you some tips on what you can do to move up
cyber hugs… Funny how you can never meet someone, yet feel like you know them! That’s why I love the blog world!
Sorry you are going through a rough time. Hugs to you.
I was recently told by my therapist that the two keys are to know your limits and accept them. It’s not enough to figure out where your limits are, you have to also accept what they are and work within them. I am thinking about that every day as I make decisions about what to do.
I keep vacillating between wanting to focus, focus, focus on my blog and wanting to chuck it all because I don’t have the time I want to spend on it. So I never judge anyone for blogging when they can or just when they feel like it.